"Fall in love, stay in love, it will decide everything" -Pedro Arrupe, S. J.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

The Wonder Year: El Año Maravilloso

Wonder: to be filled with admiration, amazement or awe, to marvel
As I reflect on my first year as a JV in the beautiful desert of Tacna, Peru, the word wonder comes to mind. This year though full of what may have seemed like wandering at first has made me witness many wonders, maravillas.  Piecing together these little and big wonders of my heart brings me an immense gratitude and a peace that fuels me and sustains me in my second year as a JV.  Similar to a swimming metaphor made by a JV friend last year, for me its like im taking off my floaties finally and maybe even getting all the way up on a surfboard and riding the waves ( a reality I have yet to reach literally). I couldn’t have made it through this year without the many wonders, so here I present them to you, my little wonders.

En vivo y directo.

In your light, I learn how to love

Mica, Micaela, my hermanita peruana, my sweet 7 year old little host sister who knows my love of mangoes, chocolate and dancing like no one else, the one I spent my first Peruvian Christmas with, who i´ve spent just about every Monday afternoon with since, who likes to tickle me,who I dance around the room with like a loca and who has blessed me with an incredible extended host family,  including Ivana, my 9 yr old host cousin who also tackles and tickles me with lots of love.
Mi mama peruana,  Male who cooks the best lentejas and torejas  on the face of this planet and consoles my troubled heart when needed.  ;)
Ricardo, mi papa peruano, though he works a lot, the few times I see him, he never fails to make some joke about my nonexistent chamberlan,  what a goofball.
Meli, Melissa, my 21 year old cousin who picks on me like a good younger sister and took marinera classes with me this year and presented the dance with me in front of my coworkers and students.
Dudito, Eduardo, Her 2 yr old baby who can finally say my name and loves to ´´mueve el toto.´´
Tia Glenda who was first introduced to me as the JVs momma figure, who spoils me with sublime ice creams and since the very beginning has been incredibly selfless, a true angel, I hope she never forgets how much I love her.


The 3 Musketeers/ Las 3 Mosqueteras

No te vayas, no me dejes, quedate conmigo, un ratito mas
Pretty sure these ladies and I first officially became inseparable after dancing in our office together to Uptown Funk for Lauren´s Wedding Video.  They still think I´m crazy but they know the rough patches of my heart and we have laughed so much together this year.  Rafaga, Rebelde, Prince Royce, HermanosYaipen, and Romeo Santo´s number 1 fans.  Moving on to the real world soon, all tituladas with their psych degrees and stuff,  for now the 3 musketeers get to share an office together un ratito mas.

Be awkward, dorky & stupid.   Bro.
Johnny-boy

The kid who asked me over a year ago now ´´eres la cubana?´, knew way too much about me before meeting me,  the kid who kept me sane on my first mes de mision, whos mom makes bomb.com arroz con leche and brings it to our doorstep,  the kid who has kept me laughing and speaking Spanglish since we met and someone who really brings out my raw awkward, dorky & stupid. Keep it up socio.

Also here´s a ridiculous comparison via the below picture but totally fitting thanks to the title of this blog post…..so..yeah, I was once told you looked like Kevin from the Wonder Years…
Say my name Say my name
#Community.My second year JV community.Maddie& Shannon arrived to Tacna last November and its been Emily and I´s job to orient them in-country and continue this JV journey together this 2016. These ladies are absolutely wonderful and making a mark in Tacna´s JV history with a house of only girls, I´m so excited to get to share this year alongside them.  They survived their first mes de mision, are getting the nack of the market, Spanish, la horaperuana, and love to dance like Em and I asique, chevere! And like my friend Senaida likes to say,  ¡Son del pueblo!  Thanks to our shared love of Rafaga.

We also enjoy singing into spatulas like they are microphones, especially to Destiny´s Child, our girl Beyonce, Backstreet Boys and Britney. ;)

 El verdadero y el primero
Grupo 3
Mes de Mision has always been and I hope will continue to be a blessing in disguise.  What first seemed to be the daunting dirty unknown quickly became a beautiful unbreakable bond to a group of amazing jovenes (15 & 16 year olds) united by a spirit of service, Promo 2016. My 7 kids in my first mes de mision group are gems of humans.  As they would say I made them suffer because I had to boss them around asking them to do hard labor to serve the pueblo, I would say that they stressed me out too, we yelled at eachother, they were lazy attitude stricken moodyflojo teenagers until the very end, BUT in one month they grew and we have grown together since.  They wrote me letters on my second mes de mision, wished me well, and proclaimed themselves ¨Grupo 3: El Verdadero y El Primero¨ as soon as they found out that my group this year was also Grupo 3.  Coming home from mes de mision this time around was something special.  I teared up because Tacna really is home to me now and full of people I love to pieces.  After being away from home for a month I was amazed and so proud when I arrived to a welcome home cartel reading ¨Bienvenida Miss Christie¨ and El Verdadero y El PrimeroGrupo 3 waiting for me to hug me and take me out to eat pizza!

Perdono si te hago sufrir, perdono si te hago llorar
Grupo 3
Mes de Mision Round 2.
My second and my last Mes de Mision was spent with a lovely group of 22 15 year olds and was pretty tranqui, with a greater sense of comfort with a year under my belt but evening out  stress-wise by basically being the mom of mes de mision as the asesora  with experience, in charge of finances and the kitchen for a bit. Paired with the amazing Genny as my co-leader, a French volunteer from the Centro that I work at who discerned coming to Mes de Mision without really knowing too much about it, we successfully led our 6 kids together in clearing caminos by moving rocks and hiking down and back to the river to bring back firewood many times.  Singing Parecequevalloveren camino and Asifueannoying the heck out of our hijitas and our hijitos, fighting with Ghojan about insignificant things like hes my younger brother,curling up next to Milagros and getting the latest drama of Peruvian 15 year olds, having Sebas and Pechis find their favorite artists on my ipod (coldplay and imagine dragons)and jam out as we cooked,  listening to Gustavo say zuuuuuuuuumba, learning how to dance some ridiculous dance craze with our boys GusGus, Mauro and Jaime, cooking Peruvian recipes for 30 over firewood with 250 kilos of papas and cebollas to pick from and becoming the Misses enojadas after just about every meal,because the children could not dump excess food properly in a bucket that was to be given to the pet pig of the lady next door (#nota sobre la utilizacion del balde del chancho).  All in all, there was a lot of teenage girls dancing with brooms and whiny kids but Promocion 2017 San Alberto Hurtado did really well and I´m excited to share this year with them and watch them grow.

Con Confianza
Megan and John, my first community mates, the ones who taught me and helped me grow so much during my first year as a JV. They allowed me to start this year con confianzaand  I hope they know that they did an incredible job kickstartingEm and I on this beautiful journey.  I miss their quirks, their beautiful spirits, their formas de ser, our favorite songs but I know that they are on to do amazing things.   They are the ones who understand me and my first year like no one else can. I am so thankful for them and the moments we lived together as a community.  Saying goodbye to them was a tear fest but I hope they know how much they are loved here. Besos y abrazostacbloc 2015.

Joder
Pardon my language but there really wasn´t another relevant title to tell you about my Spaniard friends, that involve a lot of names that start with the letter M, Miguel, Maria, Marta &Mireia.  My Centro coworkers, volunteers like us who understand and share our cross-cultural context but more importantly some of my first friends in Peru.   Although I may have only known them por un par de meses my first year, hanging out with them was always a riot whether it be grabbing burgers with our favorite street burger vendor Luchito, dancing at get-togethers, belting outMiChilala, eating tequeños and guac, bringing brownies to their house, or just the times I stopped by their house before our work shift started and felt at home.  My big brothers and sisters who understand laslocuras, they deserve a huge thank you for being awesome friends during the time our paths crossed in Peru.  Los extraño y los quiero mucho. :)

Wherever you stand, be the soul of that place.
Ginna
My coworker, my friend, my other momma, some kind of crazy, this woman has got a lot of soul.  When I first started at the Centro, it was just me and Marta, another volunteer, in a room full of 20 something  3rd and 4th graders who loved running around the room, crawling under tables, throwing things, name-calling and playing instead of homework and behaving.  When Ginna arrived, she had the power to channel their kind of wild and make moves towards order in this after school classroom, poco a poco.  I have learned a lot from her this past year but the one thing that she knows better than anyone else is that these kids just need love. She´s the first to notice the needs of our students and address them, all with lots of love.  Every time there is a visitor in our classroom we send that person ¨ energiaspositivas¨
Gracias Ginna por la energia positiva que siempre traes.

Carry me where your heart would have me

My little hearts, my students
In the classroom, this quote speaks volumes to me.  I may have the same lesson plan for all 3 of my sections of 1st grade or 2nd grade English, but I gotta let the Lord carry me where His heart would have me.  I may have a pretty tranquilo activity planned but have to do a complete 360 because today this particular group of students is bouncing off the walls. So, I make them get up and wiggle or bump up the behavior competition with cool prizes.  Every day is a different adventure that´s for sure.  When it comes to my students at my after school job at the Centro, same rules apply.  They hardly ever want to do their homework and sometimes the kids in my taller de baile just don´t wanna dance even if that’s what they signed up for. We find ourselves playing limbo or freeze more times than we actually rehearse our dances.  I wouldn´t have it any other way though, and my kids sure do teach me too.  Love is all they ever really need.

Paz les dejo, Paz les doy
Dolito
Hermana Dolores, an Hermana de San Jose with mexican roots, from San Diego, California, 86 years old and a dedication of many years of her life to the beautiful country of Peru.She has the all-time best recipes and nothing I ever copy comes out tasting quite as amazing as hers.
She is a woman of great faith that I truly admire.  She radiates paz, fuerza y amor and I can´t thank her enough for it. Te quiero muchisimo Dolito.

Bueno, there you have it, my little wonders.  The people who made my first year as a JV truly MARAVILLOSO.  Yet these are still just some of the wonders who have made this place home for me and not to mention those who keep me rooted back at home, an ocean away. :)
I am blessed beyond measure to have them in my life and look forward to keep dancing along with them on this journey.   It really feels like a dance of the purest kind of joy this year. Being a second year changes things, it’s a feeling that’s hard to describe, a feeling filled with confidence, comfort and peace,  you just gotta come to know it, to meet it along the journey, let it seize your spirit and allow you to truly become a part of this, this country, mi pais.

La Danza de mi pais.
Asi que
´Danza danza danza con tus penas, con tus alegrias, con tu caminar¨

Con todo corazón baby!

Friday, March 4, 2016

Buen Viaje

Wishing safe travels, mucha paz, fuerza y amor to my little brother as he travels to Ecuador tomorrow and serves with FOCUS missionaries reconstucting homes and building new ones. Que te vaya muy bien hermanito. Vaya con Dios!
un abrazote,
CON MUCHO CORAZON,
yo sis Christie

SO PROUD OF YOU.

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Saturday, February 13, 2016

Vivir La Vida


Fun Fact: Its been 4 years since I lost my hair to Alopecia. 
I am beyond happy to have spent one of those years on Tacna tierra here in beautiful Peru. 

 This week I decided to jump in Lake Titicaca as I visited my friend Senaida´s hometown here in southern Peru which just happens to be on the shores of Lake Titicaca or lake titi-ha-ha as our tour guide liked to call it.... (ps. its summertime here)

never felt more alive than I do these days. #blessed #jvcyear2 #letitbegin

¨Hay que vivir el pasado con gratitud, el presente con gozo y el futuro con esperanza¨
-Hermana Astrid de Tacna

Friday, October 9, 2015

Paz En Las Piedras

Literally.
Now Meet Helen.

The girl who my community mates know far too well because of the amount of times I’ve said, Helen’s coming over or Helen and I are doing this..and then… it doesn’t actually happen. .womp womp…the psych practicante at my morning job who quickly became more than a coworker, a friend that I find myself laughing until my stomach hurts with at probably the most inappropriate times at work..Buuuuut when I mentioned Las Peñas, this girl came through.  Instead of making brownies at my house or eating empanadas por el centro, we went on a total of an 8 hour caminata through the desert of chile to “peregrinar” to La Virgen de Las Peñas crossing 24 bridges over rivers, tripping over lots of rocks, climbing cerros, not sleeping, waiting in lines, being hungry and sharing in a beautiful pilgrimage experience though our feet were on fire afterwards.


After many times of laughter in the Pastoral office of Fe y Alegria spent with Helen, the third musketeer found her way to us, adding the most contagious uncontrollable laugh of us all, the biggest smile, a beautiful heart and just a profound joy to el equipo Pastoral! Senaida also tagged along for the Las Peñas adventure.

Can’t forget my wonderful community mate Emily, don’t underestimate her, this girls got wings on her feet and was totally killing it on the caminata even if she had no idea what we were getting ourselves into (hope your shins are 100% healed Em!)
and Jose, Helen’s other half, I’ll remember him eating pollo frito on a rock in the middle of the desert and avoiding my video camera ALMOST the entire viaje, a little shy at first but don’t worry he’ll try and sabotage your documentary, all with the best of intentions of course.

So what’s Las Peñas, whats the story?
Check it here:


So the “paz en las piedras” …..I believe I started this caminata fresh and rejuvenated from retreat but still battling some anxieties and I really needed to walk it off, reground, practice patience and give thanks.  Regrounding just happened to mean tripping on rocks and nearly slipping into roughly flowing rivers more than 20 times in the deep dark of the night in the middle of the desert in another country.  People might think I’m crazy for my willingness to go again but I really did find peace in the rocks (paz en las piedras) and in the walking and walking for hours BUT at the same time I was giving thanks to God for my life so far here, all the times I’ve listened, all the times I’ve received, all the times my heart has broken, all the times Ive felt human, all the times I’ve fallen in love, all the times I’ve been ruined, all the times I’ve made a friend...

Con un corazon agradecido I leave the following with you:

Food for Thought:
Have the courage to lose control.
Have the courage to feel useless.
Have the courage to listen.
Have the courage to receive.
Have the courage to let your heart be broken.
Have the courage to feel.
Have the courage to fall in love.
Have the courage to get ruined for life.
Have the courage to make a friend.


-Dean Brackley, S.J.


Thank you ALL for your continual support, abrazitos y besitos :)

Below is a video mini documentary of my journey I made for my family and friends. It is in Spanish. Enjoy it! I’m talking especially to you Mami, Papi, Tias, Tios, Primos, Primas, Ileana, Jose, the whole GT gang & Garcia crew, Yami y Caro y mis queridos amigos peruanos!!  

Con Corazón baby!








Thursday, October 8, 2015

Give Love. BE HUMAN


 “The measure of our compassion lies not in our service of those on the margins but in our willingness to see ourselves in kinship” Fr. Greg Boyle “The Calling of Delight_ Gangs, Service, and Kinship”
(A quote from mid-year retreat in July with the Andahuayillas JV community that prompted this blog post about 3 months ago… mil disculpas for the delay.)
11 months in…
I’ve missed more. I’ve loved more. I’ve dove deeper.  I’ve cried harder but laughed even harder. I’ve smiled bigger. I’ve made messes. And I’ve thanked God for the beautiful humans in my life, little and big. One of my community mates said it ever so perfectly with three words on one of our spirituality nights where we were given the task of describing each other. She gave me the following words, “a bleeding heart.”
Its in the sacred moments that I feel it most, my heart bleeding.  When I ask one of our 6 year old students about 20 times if hes walking home by himself, to try and find a way to accompany him because I want to protect him from harm. He probably walks home every day by himself in the dark and its nothing out of the ordinary for him. But for me, it’s a crisis.  I have nightmares of dogs chasing me. mini crisis.When one of my students tells me to go away and I feel as if Ive lost the battle completely. Crisis.  I just want to reach him.  To let him know how much he is loved. How much he is capable of. I haven’t made it to him yet.
When Im forced to face these feelings, feel these feelings, fully. It’s a crisis.
Although sometimes my heart may be heavy, I find words that reground me and remind me of the beauty of it all.
 “Compassion asks us to go where it hurts, to enter into the places of pain, to share in brokenness, fear, confusion, and anguish. Compassion challenges us to cry out with those in misery, to mourn with those who are lonely, to weep with those in tears. Compassion requires us to be weak with the weak, vulnerable with the vulnerable, and powerless with the powerless. Compassion means full immersion in the condition of being human.” 
― 
Henri J.M. Nouwen
  Our compassion is our shared humanity, so BE HUMAN.
GIVE LOVE. Speak even if your voice shakes, your soul is shaking alive.
Con todo Corazon.
Mini updates:
·         Los Cubanos will be visiting me in this beautiful desert in just 68 days!!!
·         I‘m gonna be a madrina, (confirmation sponsor) come December to one of my students, Milagros from Mes de Mision! :D
·         Maddie and Shannon, the baby JVs arrive in just about a month, end of november-ish, which means I become a second year jv and put on my big girl pants. Maddie is a fellow spring hill badger so I am extra excited to welcome her into her new home! Can’t wait to meet Maddie again and meet Shannon for the first time! All good things to come. :D
·         I’m taking a marinera class on Fridays for a month,  a traditional dance from Lima which I’m super excited about to learn, it’s a beautiful art, fingers crossed I can learn well.  My host cousin Melissa is also taking the class!
·         My host sister turns 7 on November 8 and is having the biggest princess party ever, which I’m excited to help out with, decorating, maybe baking, etc.
·         My best friend since Kindergarten will be visiting me next August with her husband ANDDDDD all those in my uptown funk video will get to meet THE Mr. & Mrs Bryant!
**Stay tuned for another mini update in my next blog post on my pilgrimage to visit La Virgen de Las Peñas.**